Oración al Espíritu Santo

 🕊️ Oración al Espíritu Santo 🕊️

Para comenzar, hablar, actuar… y también para callar.

Antes de pensar, decidir o responder,

necesitamos luz, no impulsos.

Necesitamos Espíritu, no solo palabras.

🙏 Reza conmigo esta oración y hazla tuya hoy:

Espíritu Santo,

amor del Padre y del Hijo,

inspírame siempre en lo que debo pensar,

en lo que debo decir

y en cómo debo decirlo.

Enséñame cuándo callar,

cómo actuar

y qué hacer

para la gloria de Dios,

el bien de las almas

y mi propia santificación.

Espíritu Santo,

dame agudeza para entender,

capacidad para retener,

método y facilidad para aprender,

sutileza para interpretar,

gracia y eficacia para hablar.

Concédeme acierto al comenzar,

dirección al avanzar

y perfección al terminar.

Amén.

💬 Interactúa:

— Escribe “Ven, Espíritu Santo” si hoy necesitas su guía.

— Comparte esta oración con alguien que tenga que tomar una decisión importante.

— Guárdala para rezarla antes de estudiar, trabajar o hablar.

✨ Cuando el Espíritu Santo guía, nada sobra y nada falta

HOPE for 4 days

I quit Disney on January 6, 3Kings day. It meant something for me: Freedom from being ignored, invisible, undervalued. It meant saying no to feeling useless and serving entitled people. 

I accepted working at HOPE FLORIDA on January 9. I started on the 9th. HOPE Navigator II. I would be helping people navigate the system to get the assistance they need. It complimented all I do as counselor and I saw it as a good oportunity to later on move to counseling within DCF. I was happy about it. I also had a gut feeling...

So yes as ridiculous as it sounds, the Story repeated itself with government disappointment. Yesterday I was asked to do voluntary resignment because new leaders at Hope said they can't comply with accommodations that I require. 

Voluntary resignment. Quitting.

I had asked for ADA accommodations. during the interview I specified I don't drive anymore because of my low vision and that I depend on other ways for transportation. from their group they had said it will be fine as I will not have to get out of the office continuously. In terms extra time or breaks for my eyesight They say they can't give that because of the nature of the line emergency, immediate action... Never mind the fact that I was hired as navigator to which referral from Navigator 1 and is for long term care. I also had to explain how my vision works, which I had already done as I don't hide my disability. It was implied that I will not comply with reports deadlines... to wish I reminded them I am a counselor and I comply with deadlines for reports for Medicaid. Still leadership if I would voluntarily resign.

It's been a fight just to acknowledge my issues with my eyes to accept that yes this is a secondly stability since I am already diabetic. I felt many things I felt disappointed I felt angry especially at the hint of me not being able to comply with the job.

So I smiled and did not hesitate. 

I went to my desk to write the letter, but I already had no access. 

I took my stuff and left the batch with the secretary, who could not believe I was leaving.

Four days.

I quit my 12 years job to give this a chance, because I was gonna help people...

Four days.

I have had no strenght to cry. It has been a day... I still feel cheated, betrayed, and angry at the whole situation because I never hid I had low vision. I never hid I could not drive. I demonstrated I could do the job, and I understand it pretty well. But, leadership disregarded the knowledge and the note from the ADA area, and it is not possible to accommodate me.  Sure. Tell me another story... They could have done the accommodation. But I spotted right away that one had a condescendent smile and the higher up just didn't want me there.

One thing I have learned is to not be where you are not wanted. 

I dont know what impression they had of me. I will never know. All I know is that I'm angry because looking to have stability to keep my dream going now I face uncertainty that taxes all of our financial situation.

I'm taking this as a sign to dive in into counseling, get more cases and get the hours thing done. Finish complying in 1 year. After getting that license then I can move on to other things... I am just scared of not having my medical plan and the certainty of at least some money to get food.

I will try not to dwell on it... but the gut feeling I had about postponing leaving Disney turne true. Once again, the government job was a mirage. Two times. The 1st at the Clerk of Courts where they fired me on Day3 because I would not lift a laser printer in my arms and I dared ask for a cart... All gives WTF vibes. All is a giant muddy WTF.

I pray I am where I am needed, and in the end this was for the best.

I pray I find a tribe and certainty.

10-4 

2026: MOVE! SMALL STEPS

 

If you want 2026 to be different, don’t aim for perfection - aim for movement.

Here are 3 ways to begin, even when the whole picture isn’t clear:

Start with the piece you do see. Don’t overthink the entire puzzle. What’s one small step you can do today? A draft, a call, a page, a first rep. Let action reveal clarity. When you move, you learn. When you learn, the next step becomes obvious. Waiting rarely creates clarity - working does. Build consistency, not complexity. You don’t need a 12-step plan. You need one repeatable move. Small, steady progress outperforms perfect plans every time.

The Scrooge challenge

Things to think of... thinkgs to weight in:

• Think of the Ghost of Christmas Past.  Ask what shaped you this year.
• Think of the Ghost of Christmas Present.  Notice one truth about your life right now.
• Think of the Ghost of Christmas Yet to Come.  Picture one choice that would change everything if you acted on it.
• Write them down.
• Put the note where you will see it.
• Let it open your eyes in the same way the spirits opened Scrooge’s.

DISSAPOINTED & SAD... BUT GIVETH THANKS

 I really dont know what to think of disney and of counseling. 

DISNEY, 12 YEARS UNDER THE BRIDGE

The being able to keep going with Disney is a dead end road. It took the meeting with the HR rep to see that it is real, there is nothing else for me there. My interests have shifted so much... I am not longer corporate bitch, or tech bitch... I am still corporate in terms of how I love the structural business life, but I am not for a soulless job. The shift to human services is real. I see hours ding nothing and just getting paid as wasted life. I am strongly considering, and waiting, on this government job that has a job description that I think says my name. I dont even want to counsel anyone... I want to offer direction and solutions. I just don't know if afterwards when I am actually in the cubicle will I still feel this way... 

PBS

I have odouble feelings about counseling, especially with the more notes, ongoing investing of time and unreliable turnover. I feel it is a job that i sleisure and for sport. I don't know if this will be sustainable if rules tighten and I cant comply... I will do my best, try my best. I cant leave Disney until I have the letter from HOPE, and then... then I have to evaluate if the 20 hours that I am required are actually doable for me. I feel tired and trapped. I'm trying to push for the license... I need it to get the TFCBT certification. I just dont know...

HOPE

I get this call after manifesting fo rit, and then I get the cold feet because of big changes and complicating my life... But I need to get out of being here in the house. I feel completely invisible in every way. I am so sad... and feel so lonely. How can I even try making friends being within 4 walls? Life has passed me by, and I still have not done something important for Deedee, or for me.

WHAT's UP

I have no idea... I will keep pushing but... need to tighten up the focus.

-Study for the test

-Take the test

-Complete the hours

-Submit to be licensed

-Submit for TFCBT Certification

These are all key to go on. I know someday I will look back and laugh as it all went so quick... like completing the Master in MHC. Oh, but the process...

I feel no connection with M or K. I feel I just live here. I feel I just should take a plane and go home. But then what. I have nothing/noone left there. I will just be alone, blind and rotten in the house. Everything is so uncertain over there, with the war making us targets. All is uncertain.

In the meanwhile... here I am in this place I dislake, feeling displaced, undervalued, unappreciated and lonely...I know my worth, but what is the point when I am constantly stepped over...

GIVETH THANKS

I give thanks to God for my awesome upbringing. I had no idea that in fact it was perfect.

I give thanks for Gladys and Willie.

I give thanks for Deedee and Sti.

I give thanks for Edni, and for her not being in pain anymore.

I give thanks for M, whom I clash with all the time but whom I know loves me in his own weird way. 

I give thanks for the other daughter, with whom I share nothing but whom I love with all my heart.

I give thanks for the houses. They bring possibilities.

I give thanks for the people who still remembers me somehow... I honestly don't know who by now... but they are out there cheering me on in their own psychic way.

I thank you God for every challenge who has shaped me into someone better than the 17 year old brat who thougt she knew anything about life. I knew nothing. 

God, bless me with tools to be my best, to help others and to keep growing.

Amen. 

 

REMEMBER REMEMBER

 Using D&D for group therapy. I completely forgot this was one of the things I wanted to do. I need to reachout to Tracy with this... I would love to run such games on saturdays for the kids.

Training is 600-800. It is something to consider after I pass the dreaded NCMHCE test.

The Disney situation had been making my juices flow 

WHAT ARE THE GOALS

GET THE JOB. Or do I already have it and I have not acknowledged it because of fear of not having benefits? What holds me back? As I have witnessed, I am but a speckle in the giant world of Disney, a speckle that can wait for solutions for weeks, and if they get lucky I will make the final mistake that will end it all. 

The DISNEY issue. Why Disney? Why I hold on to staying? Just 3 more years to getting the free passess, thats what I keep telling me... but in 3 years maybe that will not matter anymore because stress will have completely depleted me. What I wanted from Disney:

-Let go of it after completing 15 years. I will be 55. I will get my forever passes. Is it worth it?

- Phones. It's a nogo because of my eye situation, will not comply with metrics, dragging team down. Other options that have been suggested: move to another team, maybe IT?  Oh, IDK... IDK how I feel about IT again... But I know I cant keep accepting meager roles when I have degrees and experience.

I have an interview to explore some options, mainly PT but the agent may help with something else. May the odds be always in my favor.

WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY. 

Dungeons. It was my life. It brought happiness and helped me through dark times. It brought people that mattered into my life. I would like to do that for others. The therapeutic game that I wanted to do and forgot I wanted to do. From being fun I have become a stuckup dull mouse that keeps running in the wheel. Counseling has brough part of the spark back, even if I wont acknowledge that working with kids have pushed me to imagine again... and I am damn good at it. Counseling... I have to stick to virtual as I cant drive around. Maybe create virtual gaming group as test? Hmm... Kids with ADHD and ADD and any issues handling social skills and self-regulation can benefit from this. This is of note, and a biggie to explore.

Painting. aint murals, paint little dolls. Paint. I just need more direction on many other promts/ativities to integrate for each goal I want to help my clients accomplish.

Healing help. I would love working at risk patients, ipv, trafficked... caregivers of special needs and seniors. It seems like a scatter splat of ages, but all hold in trauma...loss/grief, anxiety, depression... 

I enjoy creating happiness in people's lives. Bringing joy, Bringing resilience. Helping them see their awesome selves.

IN THE END

The end of DIsney is the beginning of me being able to:

• Study for the test.
• Creating the D&D group therapy
• More clients=getting more hours faster so I can get LICENSED.

Getting that license I would:

• Get licensed in PR 
• Run therapeutic D&D sessions online for FL and PR
• Help individuals that need me as they come

And in reality, I can get tickets for Disney if I can get a full pay for my efforts... and more.

I must follow the plan of life that actually builds me up and brings into my life the joy I need. I am an artist, a dumgeonmaster, a creative entitity... 

Katabolic Therapy: Dragons SNAP!

Snap: stop now and process. 

Katabolic means energy-releasing (of a nuclear reaction) occurring with evolution or releasing of energy process.

The truth is out there... 

PATIENCE

  Remarkable change 

is simply the result 

of tiny, unremarkable actions

 done 

day in, day out.

So, there has been some moves going on that contribute to some part of peace:

GLADYS HOUSE:

Finally after all the struggles I have the GRAVAMEN CANCELADO.

Next step: 

• $350 for changing name to MINE.
• Fix muro
• Cisterna and solar backup
• Fix bathroom
• Fix kitchen white
• Abnicos techo en sala y comedor
• Fix rejas
• New 2 big doors
• Paint it all
• Cerrar balcon marquesina lado de frente con bloques disenos
• Subir pared de sala ventanas solo arriba
• Arreglar pajilla y mesa coja
• Atras techo cemento
• cuarto del mediotumbar ventanas abre cuarto atras family

WILLIE's HOUSE:

Finally got GRAVAMEN CANCELADO.

Next step: 

• $350 to change name to KALI.
• BANK: Change to Kali, and see if can be put in a interest yoelding account for her.
• Fix techo
• Paint it all
• Rent SECTION 8